HeAr+ break warfare...

I feel so freaking lost without her...wad de hell am i suppose 2 do....im still in love wid her....dat day when she had kawad...i came 2 school wid Keong...& i simply told dixon dat keong wanted 2 talk 2 Sze Yuen....bt de real reason was i wanted 2 see her..im such an idiot...she probably woudnt wanna see u again...bt i wanted 2 see her & talk 2 her....like hw we used to....bt when i saw u....itz like my heart stopped beating...& someone was pullin it out..........

I miss talkin on de fone wid her...textin her...telling her i love u before we hang up on de fone....I juz want things like hw it used 2 be....i remember de things we did...like at de pondok..majlis makan..our 1st kiss..i juz keep watching prefect's farewell...i saw us danced..i heard Alicia shouting Aww...i still remember wad u told me when we danced...u told me dat u loved me...den i told u dat I Love u 2........

I Wan HER BACK!!!!!!!....bt i dunno whether she would take me back...bt i dun care...NO HARM IN TRYING!!!!!...=)...

After All de things we've been through...im nt ready 2 giv up on us!!..So...Synn...if ur reading dis....which i really hope u r....I STILL LOVE U!!!!!!!!!..=].....& I WAN U BCK!!!!!!!!!!....IF U'll Hav Me...=)

never thought it wud be..bt itz...Over....

3:56p.m.....was de time dat my heart was ripped in 2.......i knw she dint mean 2 do it bt she still did....nw im single,lifeless & lost without her in it...bt she juz doesnt knw it yet.....nw im juz mostly sad & juz sittin in de room...listenin 2 sad songz...blaming myself 4 wad happened...id rather die den hav diz feelin in me.....bt diz is de kinda fucked up things dat happen 2 u in life....soo i juz hav 2 move on...bt i cnt...cuz im still in love wid her....by nw...hopefully...every guy will be askin her 4 a date or her number...haha....& i'll probably gt jealous...bt as long as she'z happy......bt...therez still a part in me...tellin me...."dun let her go"...bt i cnt do anythin....it wasnt my decision 2 make......no matter wad...i'll still be here 4 her...if she needs me....well datz abt it....hope she has a gud life.....x)

B.O.R.3.D.0.M...& other stuff...

These dayz...r gettin kinda boring la....haiz...& i promise my darling 2 nt swear 2 much or try not 2 @ all....kinda hard bt can try la...I miss my Darling la....i miss talkin 2 her on de phone & texing her bt cnt anymore....dat suckz reli bad....(sigh)....@ least can go out wid her & Sze yie & all...maybe Lucas cnt come cuz his grandma might not last de week...prayin 4 u & ur family bro...& even if she gonna move on...dat dont mean she aint gonna be wid u...she'll be right there in ur heart....Speakin of grandparents...i nvr met my mum's dad cuz he past away looong before i was born..i think 1989...☆✦★✢♡ℑ....i think ppl judge other ppl cuz theyre different....it doesnt matter whether theyre different...theyre still human...kay la...gonna go adi..imma be seeing yall l8tr...

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My Frenz & random stuff........

My frenz r important 2 me.......they r my family....better then my family....i see my frenz every day...so...i reli like disturbin them...especially Synn yi,Sze yie,Freda,Dek Long,Jia wye & Brandon....theyre de most fun 2 disturb....haha....im bored....wonderin wad r they doin nw....hmmmm....Jasdev & I r Officially Chinese...well i'm gonna be....hehe...y gt no fun stuff or nice ppl 2 talk 2 nw la...damn bored la....cnt disturb or call Synn yi 2day bt cn disturb Sze yie & Carmen...hehe..hehe......wish can go out wid my frenz nw la.....rather be havin fun nw wid them or in school.....yes..i said it....XD......soo datz it..

New Thingz in my life...=)......

DAAAAAMN long since i posted sumthin here....sry 4 de wait...very bz these day'z la...XP...Where 2 start....hmmm.....Oo,i knw....i'm not SINGLE anymore!!!...YES!!!...$ynn Yi said yes...haha...=)...I propose 2 her on de 6th April @ around 5 sumthin....1 day b4 my b-day...what a Freakin AWESOME Present i gotten in my Whole life!!!!!!....haha...Hari,Justine,Brandon,Jane & sum of my other frenz Call me Synn J@y.. most of de time.....XD...i kinda like de name..hehe...She is honestly de Greatest person i hav ever met in my entire life...& nothin in dis whole world will change it...My School family is de same bt more big sis's & more seniour's 2 respect & hang out wid...so yea la...XD...I still wonder hw r my frenz dat went 2 other school'z r doin...soo long nvr see them...soo i kinda miss them..XD...BT MAKIN NEW FRENZ & keepin your old frenz r forever in ur heart....X)....I Would litteraly giv my life 2 protect my Frenz...cuz they matter the most in my Life...i knw 'Familia' always comes 1st bt my frenz r & forever will be my family.......sooo datz it la 4 2day....imma see yall l8tr...

MoViE

Dis WeD...Brandon,Sarah,me,Audrey,Lucas r gonna watch Alice in wonderland......i hope itz gonna be fun...then we gonnna play pool,bowling(maybe),Arcade & de usual stuff.....

wadever de hell dat means...wonderin who else is goin...hmmm

My Frenz dat I care abt in my life......

DE frenz dat i care abt in my life r like my brothers & sisters....letz start wid my Kind of hot $isters...There's $ynn yi,kimberly,Denise Ng,Jane Lee,Grace,Sze Yie,Erina Tan,Herlyn,Eunice,Rebecca Teo,Ann Chi,Jade,Netanya,Jacqueline Anastasia,Elicia Tan.........well i think datz all of them...nw My bro's...There's Brandon J,Nafiz,Azim,Ravi,Havi,Ricknesh,Brandon Ho,Lucas Tan,Prathip,Jalal,Jayroshyan,Syameer,Chun Kiat,Kai Hao,Edric Ho,Iman Mahfoz,Alvin Lim,Lance Theseira......well i think datz it.....A lot right..datz bcuz they matter 2 me in my life...soo all of dis ppl r my School Family Bro's & $is's of 2010....

My $cHo0l F@MILY...

All of my school family r prefects even my cuz's....There's my School mom Synn yi....No School dad..sad right..XD..& there's my School Aunty's which r Jane,Grace,Vee Vien,Sze Yie,Erina,Ann.....& my uncles r Zachary & Lucas....& im Lucky 2 be in Amanda's prefect group which has Lucas,Grace,Amir,me,Wei Mun....

Me,My$elf & i

hey my name is Saanjay bt most of my frenz call me Jay....i was born on 7th april 1997 or an easier way of rememberin is 7497....My ex is nw 1 of my closest frenz...weird right..bt not 4 me..i kind of miss her..bt i still talk 2 her of course la bt i miss disturbin her.......life goes on..De kind of music i like is R&B,Hip hop,Country,Techno,Pop.....itz in my blood 2 remix songz actually..XD

...& there r my sisters & my lil bro.....i miss my elder sister cuz she's kind,smart,fun 2 hang out wid bt she's in Russia studyin Medicine...my lil sis is a pain in de ass..bt she's still family so i dnt reli hav a choice & my lil bro is a smart ass..haha..im a prefect In SMKDP...itz kind of fun actually when u do all de wrk & attend de meetings & kawad kaki...i wanna be a racer when i grow up cuz i wanna represent Malaysia sumday till dat day comes i'll do wadever it takes 2 be a racer....datz my dream